Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Monumental Moments

As I pack my baby bag to prepare for the upcoming hospital stay, I have moments where I am super excited, and then there are moments of fleeting fear. The excitement outweighs the anxiousness right now, but I know the next few days, weeks, years, and decades will bring a whole new sense of depending on the Lord!

When I was a teenager, one of my biggest problems was making dating relationships last, thinking I had all the answers. Then once I was saved, I had to truly trust that the one I was marrying was God's Will for my life, and depend on Him to control my flesh if I was ever going to be a proper helpmeet! Now that I've been married for a few years, I have a better grasp on being a good Christian wife, but we all know that there's always room for improvement. I mess up time and time again, letting "emotions" and things get in the way, and I return to the Lord with an open heart for restoration. I am blessed that my husband is forgiving when I have my moments :) But I've realized very fast that I cannot do this marriage thing on my own! I read devotional books, the Bible for godly examples, and improve my listening skills during sermons to gather all the information I can. Now that I feel more-so better equipped as a helpmeet, a whole different adventure comes knocking at the front door- and I am once again lost for wisdom! God equips us for one challenge, and just when we think we have a hang of things, BAM! a new one comes along! He doesn't let us get away with thinking we've outsmarted our situations! :)

So my new adventure is now becoming a Mommy! I realized how selfish I was once I got married and had to put my husband's needs above my own in order to make the relationship work, so I can only imagine how less selfish I need to become, in order to care for an entire life from now on! I need to keep depending on the Lord to handle all the worries and concerns about being a new mom. Oh, if there were only room in this blog to list all the things that frighten me about pregnancy, labor, delivery, and postpartum care of the baby! BUT... that's just my point! I need things to fear, so that I can give them to the Lord, and personally witness how He will provide peace!

*I will try, Dear Abigail, to be the mom that God wants me to be for you! And we will try, as parents, to train you up in the Lord so that you may not depart from it!*

All of the "scary" things we go through serve a purpose, and we can either try to handle them on our own, or seek the Lord to help us through. Obviously trusting God is the reasonable answer, but we need to decrease ourselves in order to increase Him in our lives. I can now just slightly relate to how Hannah in the Bible felt, offering everything to the Lord for His blessing of motherhood! So, here I am about to embark on my personal voyage of motherhood with very little knowledge, but more and more dependence on our Heavenly Father, and I can completely rest in His care.


"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths." [Proverbs 3:5,6]

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Victim Vs. Victor

Nothing we write are "new" thoughts, but this is just my take on a few ideas that have helped me recently.

For a world that loves being an individual, the idea that God loves us individually still baffles several minds. It amazes me that God loves me i.n.d.i.v.i.d.u.a.l.l.y. I can specifically be used of Him for many marvelous tasks! This is a humbling thought, because we constantly tend to focus on how we can improve our Christian walk, rather than how we can be of good use this current moment in our life. But, God knows us by name and specifically prays for and provides our very own needs. Samuel 3:6 says, "And the Lord called yet again, Samuel." At the burning bush God called, "Moses, Moses." (Exodus 3:4) At the tomb the Lord cried, "Lazarus, come forth." (John 11:43) These are just a few examples of how God referred to His children by name, which shows the special and unmatchable relationship we have with the Savior. Daily He calls to me, "Ashley, Ashley" and your name as well. Now it would be a cliff-hanger for His call to be left there, so I must dive into His Word to discover what the rest says!

We can unwrap our special message when we read the Bible, listen to sermons, pray, and ask the Lord for guidance. He will speak to us in that ever-small still voice that can be "heard" with genuine concentration. We are not too insignificant to work for God, nor should we say that we are unable to be used of the Almighty. If we avoid ministries, church services, and opportunities to witness, then we are playing the victim as if we just don't see how we can make a difference. When in reality, we are just robbing God of praise and glory! Of course we need to use our special talents and gifts for God, and not all situations will be something we will be called to lead, but we should still be ready to jump in and do our best for the Master, regardless of personal experience.

All we have to do is remember that God knows us as well as a shepherd knows his flock- by name. When we let that sink in, we then realize that God has specific tasks He wants us to complete. We learn of these tasks by opening the Bible and letting Him speak to us through His Word. We will not have to invent convictions; He will reveal and open our eyes to focus on Him in a way we did not expect. Then we must RESPOND to our call. Get involved in the way God reveals, and do that work with the best of your ability. Then we will eliminate the excuse of being a poor victim, and realize that we are a precious victor for the Lord!

So, take a moment, and simply ask the Lord what He would like to show you today, and be ready to do so with a cheerful heart, knowing that He will personally equip you for His task!


"V is for Victory!"

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Impressive Intentions

Today I read a story in the Bible that is not very popular, but pretty crucial to everyday life. This nameless man, known as a Levite man, had a concubine. This was a common practice, but not intended for God's chosen people. Already this man was slightly adapted to world's way of thinking instead of God's. Anyway, the concubine was also a well-known harlot, and therefore not a devoted concubine, if you will. She left her husband and dwelt with her father four months. I thought the next steps of the man were valiant in effort. He gets up, goes after the woman, and intends to fetch her from her father's house. He obviously loved her as his own, even though she gave herself to others. This man (other than disregarding God's plan for marriage in the first place) seemed to be an man of respect. He met his wife there, rejoiced to see her, and they had a mutual feast. The father-in-law begged the man to continue lodging there for days. After every effort to leave for home, the father-in-law again requested for the man to continue lodging, with reasons such he can't leave on an empty stomach so stay for lunch, and then it's getting too late so please stay the night again. This man accepted several offers of hospitality, therefore seemed to be a great son-in-law and respectful to the efforts of taking his wife back peacefully. One night the man, his servant, and his wife left the house and was determined to go home. This time it was dark and the trio needed a place to sleep and rest their donkeys. The servant suggested resting in a near-by town, but the man refused to associate with the town since it was not one of God's chosen tribes. (Another good intention.) So they finally dwelt in Gibeah which belonged to the tribe of Benjamin. An elder stopped them and after hearing the story of their travels, invited them to stay with him. This is where a seemingly successful story turns tragic!

Some mischievous men knock on the elder's door and request to "meet" with the traveling man, in order to mock and kill this stranger. Obviously the man would not expect this from a thought-to-be godly tribe. The elder had already befriended and empathized with the man, therefore pleaded with the bullies to leave him alone. After relentless teasing and prying, the elder and the man did not want to die... so they made a selfish decision! After all the hard work of being respectable, this man chickened out when his very life was on the line! He offered up his concubine to these men in his stead. Now, what good were his intentions, if it ended in this disaster?

After a brutal night of rape and abuse, the harlot met her fate. With her last breaths, she crawled to the threshold of the very house her husband slept peacefully in that night. With stretched-out arms, she laid there to die. The sun shined the next day, the man woke up from his restful slumber, opened the door to continue his journey home, and there his wife laid motionless before him. He beckoned to her, and then realized what his actions had become. So, he took her upon his donkey, finished his journey home, and cut her up into twelve pieces to represent the twelve tribes, and divided her parts among all of Israel. He did this with the intentions to show how a supposedly united children of God had divided their loyalty through murder of their own people. What this man failed to recognize is that his very own actions contributed to this murder!

I retell this story to lay down this message... how often!!!...do we give one inch to the devil, and he takes a mile from us! How often!!!...do we try to justify our wrong actions to correct our mistakes! This man had mainly good intentions, but honestly erred from the start. He disregarded God's law of marriage, then tried to be loyal within his sin. His loyalty did not excuse his disobedience. When he intended to be a good son-in-law, he resulted in sneaking away in the night to avoid the father's request to stay the next day. He may have seemed to be a leader, but he did so sneakily. Therefore, he needed a place to lodge again, which resulted in chaos. He seemed to be a good guest by not bringing harm to the elder or the home, but his compromise resulted in death anyway! Then he blamed the men for the murder in which he actually contributed in!

This man spoke out to Israel when they asked him about the results of his journey. When the man blamed the murderers, Israel attacked the tribe of Benjamin. When Benjamin would not give up the murderers to be killed, God's two tribes fought and thousands died, and the tribe of Benjamin nearly became extinct! In a haste, Israel vowed not to let any of God's children marry to the tribe of Benjamin. But they soon realized that this vow would erase one of the tribes. Then since the remaining men of Benjamin needed wives so not to totally wipe out their existence, Israel killed the men and wives of one city who failed to help them fight. They compromised on their vow to put a higher priority on the people. After all of these deaths, the virgins from that helpless city contributed in the continuation of Benjamin. They were basically back to square-one, but with thousands killed and the sin still alive and present.


ALL of these actions resulted from a man's "good intentions" to pursue his concubine. None of these extreme consequences could have possibly been known by the man, but they did result from the initial sin of not failing to seek God's Will. Our sins DO have consequences, and possibly a whole chain-reaction of events as well. We affect several with our ONE sin!! And most of the time, we think, "Oh this one sin is harmless!" But remember that every sin is nothing but harm in the eyes of our Living God. No sin goes undetected by Him, and we may someday see the results of them when standing before God Himself. Scary thought! So, let us pay more attention to living a sanctified life, and repenting those un-confessed, "swept under the rug" sins, that we commit most daily. May we also apply the messages we read in God's Word to our daily lives, to live in a way that pleases our Master! Remember that any ground given to satan is less ground surrendered to God!



This Bible story is told in Judges 19-21.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

"Bless ye the Lord"

Hello, friends. It feels like ages since I've posted on here! On New Year's Day my husband and I found out that we are having a baby, come September 2012! YAY! :D Since then we have been figuring out baby names, how to maximize our small one-bedroom farmhouse, and learn all we can about what to expect while we're expecting :) So needless to say, it's been extremely busy around here! But amidst all the excitement, I can't help but feel a tad guilty about neglecting this blog. Not that this is a masterpiece nor do I have hundreds of readers, but nonetheless it's still a personal responsibility to me. All-too-often we take our eyes off little things to make enough room for the thrilling moments in life. So, here I am trying to regain some balance in my life.

This whole experience reminded me of how we often take our eyes off Jesus when something "better" seems to stroll in front of us. (Of course nothing compares to Him, but the flesh tries to convince us otherwise.) These little idols in our lives create a stumbling-block between us and the Savior. It is no secret that we serve a righteously jealous God (all you have to do is read Deuteronomy 28 to know that!) and how precious our full devotion is to Him.

During our daily devotions this morning, my husband read Psalms 134. Verse 1 says, "Behold, bless ye the Lord, all ye servants of the Lord..." This phrase struck my mind. Most everyday and in every situation we ask the Lord to bless us, but to think that we could actually BLESS the Lord of lords and King of kings? That there is something we could DO for the Creator of the earth? I know this may seem elementary, but I was intrigued that God actually wrote in His Word for us to bless Him! We bless Him by simply praising Him, but this is an important aspect of our relationship! This made me feel even closer to Him.

May we try to regain balance in our ever-changing lives, and remember to focus on God daily and learn to bless Him. And even when something amazing happens (like finding two pink lines on an EPT) remember that God is the One who allows blessings in our lives, so don't get caught up in the moment without praising Him! May I continue to frequently write these blogs and stay tuned to how God inspires me.

♪"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace."♪